Bring on the mental breakdowns.
Here’s what happened this week:
Gordon was gone the whole week on assignment for work so lucky me! I got to take care of all the regular ‘keeping the kids alive’ stuff and handle a few work deadlines (read: work into the night) without the nanny coming this week to help because she went to Paris on vacation. Doesn’t that sound so nice?
Normally, this would be easy to do and simple to handle. Heck, I did it the whole summer. But during that time, I had help and not a ton of hard deadlines. And the kids didn’t have school drop-off and pick-up. (Meaning: I could sleep in until 7 or so and get away with it.)
But this past week, I was working until about 1 am every night, Eddie was waking up at 5:30am and I was out the door with all three by 8am walking to school.
I made it to Wednesday before I had a breakdown.
Of course Gordon couldn’t do anything about it because he hadn’t been home, so I had to let a few work things drop so I could sleep. (Which is why nothing was posted on my blog between Wednesday and Friday.) If I’ve learned anything from having babies and being an exhausted mom since 2009, it’s that if I don’t get my sleep, then everything is magnified to appear 100x worse than it actually is, thus making my mental and emotional well being take a nose dive. By Friday morning though, I was feeling rested enough to walk my kids to school, walk an extra half mile to Target with Eddie (because Target makes everything better 🙂 ), pick up a few things for Ed’s birthday (this coming weekend!!), walk home and then immediately turn around to leave for speech therapy.
I was mostly back to normal by the time my husband came home Friday night.
Saturday, I made it to the gym. Kind of shocked that I made it once this week, but I’ll take it. I’d like to go more, but I just can’t seem to fit it into my schedule. I can’t really get up early because when the alarm goes off, I turn it off and go back to bed. I typically choose sleep over *almost* everything I do. I have to have it to stay sane and not have breakdowns. My minimum is 8 hours.
When I think about how infrequently I make it to the gym, I think about all the walking and pushing and lifting I do since we’ve moved here and never allow myself to feel that bad about it. How many calories do you think I burn walking two miles pushing two kids, bags and bags of groceries and school backpacks? I’d say enough. Haha!
Like I mentioned above briefly, Eddie started speech therapy officially! He goes every Wednesday and Friday morning and we’ll probably take him until our insurance tells us otherwise. The speech therapist is fun, but is really good at pushing him to express himself with words and boy oh boy does he get frustrated! He’s very good at expressing himself without having to talk at home, so he tries that with her and doesn’t get anywhere! I think we’ll have to start doing the same things to get some more real words out of him. Makes me sad because he gets so frustrated, but I know its for his own good. He can say yes (yes) this (dis) and push (pus) but only when he wants to. Usually when we say “Eddie, say push!” he won’t. RASCAL!
He can also make the S and M sounds, so that’s what we’re working on. Mostly just the word “me”.
Our kids have slowly becoming bolder and bolder in their jabs back and forth at one another (just Brooke and Blake since Eddie basically doesn’t talk) so when Gordon got home this weekend, we had a little sit down talk and figured out some goals for family communication. So far so good, though its only been a few days. We even changed our letterfolk board to coincide with our new goals! We’ll see how this goes…
Since Gordon came home for the weekend, a good chunk of Saturday and Sunday were spent in the kitchen testing recipes. I love getting it done, but hate cleaning up. I ran my dishwasher 6 separate times in the past 48 hours. SO ridiculous, but SO thankful for my dishwasher!! Maybe when we eventually get a place of our own, I’ll install two dishwashers. Surely, that’s a possibility, right? Anyone out there with two? (I’d like this set up, please. SO dreamy with all those windows!)
I also set up a Facebook group where you can have interact with other home cooks, ask questions or for cooking advice, share useful tips and share your favorite recipes! Join here.
Here’s what’s happening next week:
Yummy recipes coming soon!!
My nanny is back in town! Yahoo! I’ll feel like I’m accomplishing things again 🙂
Eddie turns two! I can’t believe it.
Gordon is back in the office which means home for dinner every night. Yesssssss. (It’s the little things, folks.)